Your grandchild will grow up thinking he is "different"

Some useless information. Saw Scary Movie 4 last night, I have loved all 3 previous scary movies but this one was lame. The best bit was the Tom Cruise/Oprah interview satire right at the end, that cracked me up... oh and this other scene where the main girl is cleaning this catatonic old lady and isn't looking and cleans her from her bedpan full of piss. gold. But for the main part it was boring.

Went to Transmission at the Duke of Yorke on Friday with Toby, Courtney, Steve and Toby's cool friend. Was really good!!. Walked in and they were playing a Maximo Park song. They were lots of hipsters and few people with really cool shoes. Seemed like lots of hipsters who didn't even care about the songs being played. People with oh so "now" haircuts and black dress shoes. Looking out from under there modern indie disguise with frontish hiding eyes, look at me, I am clearly the coolest, hippest person in Adelaide.. right.. right? You can tell I'm ahead of the pack. Smile. Friendliness yeah? Yes it looks cool, but then again sometimes too much "look" disgusting, especially if its combined with an unsupported arrogance. Unsupported by lack of musical knowledge, interest and enthusiasm etc. Yes enthusiasm for a genre, what are your motives for your look. Music, the music. If its all your look and you don't like the music then gross. But then again how can one tell what someone likes/dislikes, just cos they werent out there dancing like a madman i guess doesnt mean they arent enjoying it.

Its apparent as I write this that Im in one of those for/against moods where things spark disgust then I go about arguing both sides then at the end I have gotten no where. Making a stand, final judgement on something is scary. Cos everone has a different view and focus on things. Anything said on here is personal opinion only which is of course limited by my meager Adelaidian life experiences/views/beliefs and focuses. This blog is an outlet as I find it easier to write down these views then to talk about them with someone as I cannot always organise my words or may be focusing on the persons interest instead. I can go over something i write down (re-read and make edits), if i blurt out the first thing i think, then thats it.. that thing i blurt out will be taken as final but no it is not final just part of the process of forming an overall idea/opinion. Visual thinker? Pictures stronger then linguistical words and flair for language. Sometimes hard to sentence a complex interwoven picture of impressions, feelings, ideas and unconclusions. Words fail me sometimes. It's the whole thing where you have good strenghts in one area but on the other hand equal weaknesses in others.

Back to Transmission...There were 3 dj's rotating, 2 were shit, but one of the dj's, Dj Ross was great!!!... Mad shouts!! every single song he played i like.. even played The Knife - Heartbeats which was great. So yes, will definately be going back there next month. Other bands played were Interpol, The Smiths, The Walkmen, The Presets, The Subways, Libertines.. and many more good bands I cannot summon from my weekended brain dead head.

I don't know why i just wrote those things, who cares, why write this on a blog. I am giving nothing with this information, nothing. Oh but wait, I shall give you this gift, download this song its a great song from "Thunderbirds are Now!" - its either called Safari or Eat this City, not sure as I have 2 files with the same name. Get it from here (right click, save link as). P.S. If anyone knows where I can find the new Thunderbirds are Now! album can you please let me know. I've been told its on indietorrents.com but that's invite only :(

Another good band I stumbled across is "The Valentinos".. great.

Critical, critical of other people and things.. mostly critical of myself. This criticalness means I care about things? Care enough to have an opinion? not sure. On the one hand being critical with things it gives u the mentality that mostly everything is crap and the rare gems (music, people) you do find you loooove and hold close to you. On the other hand criticalness holds you back and often puts yourself in negative moods. I find that I often am too critical and second guess how i write, speak, act when in reality mostly no one cares or notices much anyway. So many subtleties out there, I want to grasp, to own, to know. I could ramble and debate these things on here and just go round in circles.

You know when ur moody or pissed at yourself so you automatically act a way that promotes a certain response. I think this is happening right now. I think that we have total control over everything in our lives but fool ourselves otherwise, our motives whether direct or under the surface are always there and controlled but us. We are creating our outcomes with every act/decision we make. Love thinking about things like this.

I need more information, about everything. Black and White.. ugggghhhh, i am not a black and white person. Mostly things are not set in stone, YES, NO, "this is how it is" thinking stifles creativity, new ways of thinking and the POSSIBILITES. Need to explore the black and white mindset tho as there has got to be great advantages to this way of thinking/life. We all work from our desired functioning, what we see best serves us, reassessing is good.

*EXPLODES* - Dan ripoff.

Posted by Nathan Kowald @ 12:47 PM