Was sooo tired at work today hated it, wenever im tired at work I get all fidgety and lean off of my chair and twist my upper torso in lots of different positions TRYING to get comfortable. I just downloaded the new New Order album "Waiting For the Sirens Call" off of a bittorrent site, listening to it now, its pretty good so far, im up to track 7 now, track seven is called Draculas Castle and it rules, its got some killer electro synth action going on.. yeah! wow.. that and Krafty are my faves so far. I wanted to blog this morning sooooo bad while at work, i was in a stacks sarcastic, annoyed mood and all these random thoughts and ideas were flowing, ebbing if you will like crazy, i think i must have changed my msn display name like 25 times in the space of 10 minutes. Outlets need outlets. cummon!!!!
Ever since this weekend ive been thinking of my dad like he's a robot for some reason. Like he runs on commands or sumthing, Is this disrespectful? I dunno. Like he needs to have a thought and follow through on that thought to function. Hi Dad, hows it going? I still owe u $200 for car insurance yes I know, I plan to pay u next payday. Msn conversations where u type something and get a response 2 minutes later is pissing me off. NOW! NOW! NOW! now repeat that back to me. Friday 2moro! Yay!
Time to go now, sleepy.... oh oh that's right the reason i was gonna even blog today was cos last night I had a dream about moblogging. When I woke up I was like.. huh? i had a dream about moblogging.. ? man i must really enjoy moblogging to be dreaming about it. Like I have never dreamed of anyone from work and I see them everyday but Im dreaming of mobloggin. Anyway, the dream was me and my brother are driving down the freeway and going the opposite direction to us are a huge mammoth line up of cars wanting to get to work or watever a huge que of cars. is that how u spell cue queue?? and anyway in the very middle of the queue there was 3 dudes who had gotten out of their cars and were standing on their cars bonnets giving the finger to everyone who was in their cars in the queue behind them, they were flipping them the bird with expressions of proud contempt too i might add.. they were all Yo we are the last ones allowed to travel to work today you can all go f yourselves. and while me and my bro were driving past i was like HOLY SHIT this would be the BEST moblog picture EVER taken, i knew in my head the perfect angle to take the pic from.. with the 3 dudes large in the foreground and the huge lineup of commuters in the background. So we drive past and i take the pic, but i take it too late and i think. then wake up... Yeah anyway.. pretty pointless but i wanted to share. CYA!
Found a nice little app on the
Google Hacks website. It's called
Word Color. What it does is uses Google Image Search to determine the color of a word or string of words. It goes out there, retrieves the top 9 images and loops through all pixels, calculating the average hue, which is later converted to a color.
Here's a screenshot of the result from inputting my name "Nathan" into word color, the colour it returned was
#BF406A, not bad!
Check out the images it came up with.. pretty messed up! Why did searching for "Nathan" come up with 2 pictures of dudes holding fish?? Are people with the name Nathan naturally drawn to fishing? I know Im not.
Download WordColor (473KB .exe file)
here.
Somebody Told Me Love is Unkind, Give In? This Picture Compliments Positive Tension, Like Eating Glass. So here we are, Caramel City, Fearless Paranoia Attack Plans An Honest Mistake. Southern Belles in London Sing On Top My Friend Goo Protect Me From What I Want. Believe Me Natalie, Smile Like You Mean It, Get Outta Town I Dissapear. Mildred Pierce How Could I Forget? I'll Be Yours, Give In. Phone Call The Pioneers Rites of Spring Erection.
I went to Coles tonight, the one near my house which I used to work at. I needed some deodorant for my pits but thats not important right now. While walking to the deodorant isle I saw this tall dude who used to come through my checkout sometimes. "Bike Pants Man" I named him. From when i used to work there when he'd come through my checkout i found out that he lives 1 street down from me and I got to know he is a teacher at some school. He used to walk in to Coles wearing skin tight bike shorts and matching spandex sleeveless top. It was not pretty and he was at the recieving end of many a staffs payouts and bewildered stares. He's one of those teacher types who are all nice and try to be kool to people younger than them as if they need their approval or something. What is with that?? Nah Ive got it wrong, they just identify with the younger youth types. I dunno anywho. So i see this dude and hes probably 45 or something and hes in tight dark denim jeans, tight t-shirt and he's got like an ultrahip 19 yr old male wog type haircut, u know the one, blonde bleached mullet with short shaved sides and random streaks throughout. I saw him and my instant reaction was that of mixed emotions and thoughts. One side of me was laughing at him while the other side of me was all huh? why? i wonder? blah blah. Why is he dressing like a youngster?. Which started me thinking again about what the cut off for dressing young is and standards like that and all. Ahhhh. So Ive paid for my stuff and leaving and walk past this guy, he sees me and smiles and says "hey there!" you know in a teachery, im kool.. "how u doing" type cheesy voice. Im like hey hows it going, then keep walking. I have nothing to say to him... oh oh .. hi, yes umm hows the teaching going? why are you dressed like that? Does he expect me to stop and chat because Ive seen him in those clothes and thinks he's "cool" and now want to hang out with him?.
I just hope that when i reach the cutoff point I will pass on gracefully and forget about trying to be all super hip and youthfull. Will I know?, i think i will. I hope i will. I need to start cultivating a more I dont give a shit about fashion approach now while im 22 and slowly bow out of the "fashion" game. On the other hand tho I really like to get new clothes that I think look kool or I really like because say if im walking in town and see some person wearing some rad outfit (usually an Asian..hehe lots of asians have the BEST fashion sense).. ill got DAMN that looks soooo gooood! And it really produces a big *WOW* emotion in me and I guess I want to reproduce that myself. Im a visual person who notices these things so its a natural progression. If you are not a person who's interested in clothes AT ALL and have ever wondered why people bother than this one reason why they might. Doesnt make it right or smart, it just is and lets leave it at that.
I found a new kool band, "Deadsy". I like very much, props to Karl for getting me onto them. Im so bored tonight, Im not doing anything and therefore am just getting annoyed and down. It became apparent to me tonight that I have no real passion about much anymore, I feel no excitement about something which I can talk about to people, It's like these days I go to work and then just waste away the rest of my time. Don't mean to get all depressive and stuff but thats how it is and so say when im talking to someone and they ask what ive been up to all i really have to say is working.. how boring. I know that i should'nt focus on this too much because what you focus on you attract to you and all that mumbo jumbo but I don't see how I can be happy in my current state of duldremness (if thats how its spelt)
Why does my mind have to impose so many rules on everything. I hate it. Okay none of this no no.. like like. Lets pick this up and get it moving on a positive vibe. I want to live my life more like Ferris Beuller, with confidence and belief alone. I need to do some mind hacking and change some of my self imposed "rules". It's so possible, all about looking at things differently. I think staks about all of this sorta stuff but I don't like to give that away too much because I don't like the whole image of being into "psychology". I tend to think that people who are most interested in these things are interested because they want to find the answers to their own personal problems and what not, and so its more self-orientated as opposed to others-orientated. I can see an element of this in myself as much as I'd like to believe It wasnt true, however I think that I tend to think about this stuff more from the perspective of trying to understand and relate to people better, as opposed to trying to fix my percieved personal problems. I would never study these things because I think It's something you learn from life and life is meant for living, experiencing, feeling.. not for over analysation of these things. I am in no way condoning thinking, thinking alot is the difference between a smart and dumb person. However a common trait and this may be a generalisation, of the textbook "intelligent" person is that the intelligent person mostly always thinks they are right, this in my opinion is dumb and if I see an "intelligent" person who is certain that they are always right then I don't think they are really that smart at all because they do not see the whole picture, only the picture they allow themselves to see. For this reason I don't really care if people perceive me as dumb because I know Im not and dont really have anything to prove to anyone, well in ways i can be dumb but I mean we all have strengths and weaknesses right.
Its all about seeing the whole picture and seeing the whole picture involves seeing things from others shoes. I would like to say Im living out these theories to my fullest but it is so not the case, my life, thoughts and actions are a whole bunch of contradictions and I am very aware of this fact. Anyway, these have been my ramblings. Im outta here!
